The Path

The Path

[Note:  The photos that follow were taken with my phone, not the good camera.  I know I can do better, but they’ll give the flavor of today’s walk down the trail.]

Now that I’m retired I take a long walk pretty much every morning, pretty much along the same path.  Even though I’ve fallen into what may seem like a boring routine, today’s walk came with some surprises.  

It started with the first snow of the season! 20181109_065230

I saw more deer today than I have in a long time.  Sometimes they seem almost tame.

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My goal today, laugh if you must, was to take a selfie with a deer along the way.

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What about turkeys?  I’ve seen them from time to time, but I never expected this!

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Today it seemed as if there was something new, something unexpected around every turn in the path, deer, turkeys, splashes of fall color, not ready to give in to inevitable winter blasts.

I had a great walk… in the snow, with the deer, and the turkey’s and fall’s last lingering colors.

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Praise to the Creator, the maker of deer and turkeys and snow and by whose providential care we walk our daily paths wherever they may lead.  Today’s gift…

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Things Along the Way

What I heard on the radio this morning motivated me to revise my plan for the day. Which is to say, actually make a plan for a seemingly empty dreary, rainy, gray-sky day. All it took to get me going was a weather report that included high winds and big waves. There were gale warnings for Lake Michigan and up to 11 foot waves!!  It was time to take my camera for a ride. And, so I did. I made my way to the shore, winding my way along back roads to see big waves and whatever else I could find along the way.IMG_7053

I started out looking for big, bold, violent waves bashing into whatever was in their path. However, what I found along the way, was quiet beauty. The splashes of yellow and orange from trees that punctuated the grayness of the day.  The farmer’s market, where one could still get apples and cauliflower and Brussel sprouts provided an opportunity to taste and see goodness. And on and on … the delightful music on the radio dancing around the car, the fall rain washing the face of the earth, the edges of a lake shrouded in misty rain, the empty back roads and much more all made for a wonderful afternoon adventure.

The radio report was accurate and the waves were impressive indeed.  The southwest winds pushed rolling giant walls of water toward shore, crashing it into the lighthouse at the end of the pier.  However, it was the other things, the things along the way, that blessed me the most today. The things along the way … today’s gift, indeed.

Retired – I Probably Should Write Something

As I write this, it’s one day after my last day of teaching middle schoolers. It’s the end of a 44 year career of working for two different school associations, in four different buildings and classrooms, with many colleagues and a boatload of middle school students. I suppose I should write something. After all, this retiring business is a big deal. Just the fact that while I’m sitting here writing, I can still get choked up thinking about my teaching career says, yep it’s a big deal. So I guess I should write something, I’m not sure what, though.

Today, I had some time to delete school stuff from my soon-to-be extinct school account. I kept a few things, but deleted most. After all, when will I ever need that ‘Compost Column Summary’ assignment? And that website I created to help launch kids into discoveries about God’s world? You know, the one I would always introduce with the line ‘go to http:/mrk…. , your favorite website, heh, heh…’ Not needed anymore, gone… It gave me a quite a funny feeling. I guess maybe I could write about those funny feelings… I don’t know what though.

I’ve taught with a lot of people down through the years. I’ve served under a host of different principals. I was even the principal for a couple of years! Most of these colleagues I would count as friends. Some of them, well, we got along okay, but, uh, you know… Looking back over my last day I have to say that I didn’t make the rounds and seek out all my colleagues to do a final goodbye, perhaps an error on my part. However, the reverse was also true. They knew where to find me.

However, the friends and colleagues with whom I did connect. Let’s just say that the tears flowed as we reminisced, expressed our mutual respect, admiration and love. Maybe that’s something I could write about here. Maybe I could end it with some tag line like ‘today’s gift…’ but they already know that’s how I feel about them and maybe that’s enough said for now.

I’ve taught more than a few middle schoolers over the years. All of them are precious in the eyes of God. But really, for some of them, that whole precious-in-the-eyes-of-God stuff looks good in print, but in reality, I imagine that the Creator of the universe had his hands full during their middle school years. I know I did.

Occasionally, I’ve had the privilege of meeting up with former students. What a treat and a blessing to see how, years later, the Spirit has been at work in their lives. That might be a good thing to write about, the Spirit’s work. Maybe I could do something with that.

… So after all that, I’ve decided what to write about. Here goes.

I was reminded recently that it’s not my teaching that defines who I am. Good thing. As of yesterday, I’m not a teacher anymore. However, what ‘defines’ me and all of us, no matter what occupation or stage in life we’re in, is this. We are children of God. Through us his Spirit is at work, advancing his Kingdom, one step at a time, for his glory. And that, my friends, is what all this  has been about.

This Morning’s Moon

There it was bright and beautiful.  The only light in the sky that mattered this morning.  It’s brilliance outshining the star’s tiny dots as they faded away before the sunrise.  The moon, almost full, lit my path this morning.  It’s the same moon that people I care about, coast to coast and everywhere in between, might be looking at this morning as well.  This morning’s moon… It made me think of you.  It’s something we can share even though we are so far apart.  Today’s gift.

Crocuses and Rainy Days 

Today is the first day of March.  It is a gloomy, rainy day… one of many in the last few weeks. There are puddles the size of small lakes taking over the school garden outside my classroom window.  It’s cold and drippy outside.  Students have to spend recess indoors. Ugh!  

Once upon a time, about four years ago, I posted “Welcome Rainy Days.”  [See https://uvraylandrover.wordpress.com/2014/05/15/welcome-rainy-days/  ] In it I took the sometimes unpopular view that rain is good, necessary, a gift from God.  I’m not feeling it today.

Okay, okay, I know there are places in the world that are begging for just a little bit of the rain we’ve had in the last few weeks.  I know that we need water for important things … like life.  I know that God provides all that we need through his creation.  Rain is an act of divine providence, of grace given to all of us, after all.   I know, I know!  In my head I know it’s all true.  In my heart, I’m not feeling it.

So, as I stood by the window lamenting the soggy view, I noticed something.  At the edge of the garden, poking up through the mud, being pelted by the relentless rain were tulip leaves!  Two inch tall tulip leaves!  Amazing!  What a find on this dreary day!  And then, just a few inches away, I saw… crocuses!  In bloom!  It was a glimmer of hope, indeed, that Spring was coming.  Today’s gift on a rainy day…

I should probably stop here and resist the temptation to turn this into some cheesy metaphor about life… You know … in our troubled times, when things are gloomy and without hope, God provides crocuses to brighten our day.  Yep, I should just end it here.  However, it’s true.  He does.  I know.  In gloomy times, I’ve experienced that gift from others.  It is God’s gift of love in its various forms that brightens our hearts, on dreary, rainy days.  Today’s gift, indeed!

“Did You Ever See An Angel?”

As I approach the three-months-to-go-until-I-retire milestone, I’m discovering a lot of ‘lasts’ – things that I’m doing, using or talking about for the last time in my classes.  Things that I still like doing.  When someone congratulates me about my retirement I try to be gracious, but at this point… I don’t know.  There’s still a lot I like about what I do.

I do know that I still have more to do and more things to tell.  Like today, when a student asked, “… did you ever see an angel?”  Those were the magic words that launched me into a story that I’ve told students for almost 40 years.  And today, I realized, it would probably be the last time.  

Depending on the day, I can stretch that story to last a whole 45 minute class period.  It makes me a bit sad.  It’s like saying goodbye to an good friend.  And that’s the way it is with old friends, I guess.  Sometimes you just can’t get enough.

So without going into great detail here… a friend and I went backpacking in the Smoky Mountains.  It was to be a 3-day, 2-night trip into the wilderness.  No phone, no electricity, no cars, just our feet and all the things we’d needed on our backs.   It was enjoyable, a lot of work and not without its frustrations.

One of the frustrations was the trail that went along Eagle Creek.  We discovered, late in the day, that to get to our designated campsite, we needed to cross this creek.  There were no bridges or stepping stones to walk across, either.  Just deep springtime, swift water flowing over slippery rocks.  

We stood and puzzled for a while, not quite sure what to do. We needed to cross the river.  We needed to complete our loop.  Our families were going to be waiting for us after all.  What to do?  

While we were thinking a guy came walking up.  He looked like he just got out of the shower, fresh and neat.  Quite the contrast to the two of us – hot, sweaty and a mess.  He had no backpack either, just a small sack.

Brian was his name.  He said he had worked in the park summers and knew this trail we were on.  He said he was there to meet his brother coming down the same trail.  Then he said, “You’re going to have to cross this creek a dozen times before you get to your campsite.”  Then he said that he wasn’t going to wait around for his brother and did we want the butter pecan ice cream he had in his sack.  We took the ice cream and Brian walked away.

After a bit of ice cream, still firmly frozen, we decided to try wading across the river.  One step convinced us that we were making a big mistake as the water immediately came up to our waists.  Soaked, tired, frustrated and armed with the knowledge that it would take a dozen crossings of Eagle Creek if we were to continue, we turned back.  

We turned back and looked for Brian!  He certainly could help us figure out a shorter way back to civilization. The ice cream was still frozen, after all.  Quickly, we headed back, but Brian was gone.

Here’s where I could play up the ‘angel’ part.  But I really don’t believe Brian was an angel sent by God.  I do believe, however, that Brian was indeed sent by God to a couple of inexperienced hikers.  I believe he was God’s messenger to tell us about the dozen crossings across Eagle Creek.  Armed with that information we humbly went back, safe and sound, the way we came.

The point I make with my students is about God’s providence.  Just like he took care of us on the trail by sending Brian, he takes care of us every day, in usually, ordinary ways.  He does what’s best for us, even if we don’t always realize it.

So, did I see an angel?  Probably not.  Did I see another example of God’s care? Yes!  It’s a fun story to tell, and today, I probably told it for the last time.  However, In the telling I’m reminded, once again, that God’s providential care will last for all time.

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We Go Way Back…

At school, we were standing around one day chatting.  The conversation led to what we call in my circles, ‘Dutch Bingo.’  When we were finished, a colleague and I had established that in the distant past we had shared common schools, a common friend and similar experiences.  We discovered that we go ‘way back.’

Perhaps others in the group, excluded from this particular thread of way-backness, were rolling their eyes.  There he goes again with another reminisce about the old days… and.. I will admit that I do this.  I do this with my students, colleagues and at home.  Too much probably.  They might say I’m living in the past.  It’s time to move on.  It’s time, to look to the future!   Perhaps.  Maybe it’s my impending retirement that is leading to all this silly ‘way back’ reflection.

Awhile ago, I was talking with a young couple at church.  We go way back … to about last spring.  We were swapping travel stories.  The wife had some anxiety about travelling alone to an out-of-town convention, the first time for her.  We talked about the details. I offered  encouragement.  She told me that friends of her parents from ‘way back,’  live in the same town in which the convention was being held.  They would be picking her up from the airport, taking her out for dinner and taking care of transportation for her while she was there.  No worries. “Isn’t God amazing at how he works things out!” she said. Yep, that’s right.

We all have ‘way back’ people in our lives, some good, some not.  We can’t help it.  Sometimes we go ‘way back’ with people we don’t really care about, perhaps someone who caused us pain.  Our ‘way back’ people don’t always make easy memories, but they’re there whether we like it or not.

Playing a one-way game of ‘Israel Bingo,’ God reminded Jeremiah that they go ‘way back.’  “Before I shaped you in the womb, I knew all about you. Before you saw the light of day, I had holy plans for you…” (Jeremiah 1:5)  

Me and God? We go way back, too. Like Jeremiah, we go way back before I was born, before I saw the light of day and before I knew that we went ‘way back.’  Yet, even so, long ago, God had holy plans for me.  He used the ‘way back’ people, places and events in my life and wove them together in some mysterious way to make those plans reality.

Maybe, all this reminiscing and living-in-the-past stuff is okay, to a point.  However, maybe the stories I need to share should have less to do with me and more to do with God.  That would make more sense. After all, we go ‘way back,’ you know.

Oasis

OK, I’ll admit it… I do like my electronic devices. When I have to go long periods of time without being ‘connected’ I can get a little antsy. 

I’m in the middle of Montana on the ‘sorry-no-wifi’ Empire Builder train. We’re on our way to visit family. It’s a two day trip and once we leave the wifi friendly confines of Chicago’s Union Station, we are cut off!

That is, until we reach the wifi friendly confines of Shelby, Montana where the station is located right across from the Oasis Bar and Casino. They have food and dancing and….. wifi that reaches to the other side of the tracks, right where I’m sitting. Crazy!

So to all of you who have been waiting to hear from me…..here you go… And thanks to the folks at the Oasis Bar and Casino.

No Crib for a Bed

Note:  This year’s faculty devotions task landed during the season on Advent.   Here’s what I shared with the staff.

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Lamentations 3:22-23 – The LORD’S loving kindnesses indeed never cease,  for His compassions never fail.  They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness.

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No Crib for a Bed

 The preacher said, “Sometimes to understand Advent we need to look back into the darkness in order to look forward to see the Light.”

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Harold DeWit, long time teacher of covenant youth, looked out over his wide-eyed 5th graders, just… just looking at him. He had given them lengthy instructions for the “Creation Rocks” project and they just sat there as if waiting for a starter’s pistol.

“What are you waiting for?!” Harold said.  “Get going!”  

That was several years ago and “what are you waiting for?” became one of those lines  Harold used to launch each and every new project.  And… for Harold, this year, it became the spark for a grand idea for his Advent bulletin board project.

“Hey, Mr. DeWit?”

“Yes, Abby,” said Harold to his almost daily early morning visitor.  He was at his desk attacking a mountain of uncorrected papers he wanted to get done before Christmas break.

“What should I do with this?” Abby said.  She was standing by the back bulletin board holding up a picture of a scruffy dog, printed from an animal rescue website.  

“Just hang it anywhere.”

“There’s no room.  It’s full.”

“Just figure it out,” He regretted his curt reply.  But in spite of the season of light, hope, joy and peace, Harold was not feeling any of them at the moment, especially this week … The week, when long ago…

“OK.  I stuck it next to Evan’s, whatever-it-is, in the corner.  Hey, Mr. DeWit?”

“Yes, Abby,” Harold sighed, his patient professional veneer wearing thin.

“Do you want to know what I’m waiting for?” Abby said.

Trying to move things along, Harold cut to the chase.  “A new dog, I’ll bet.”

“Yep.  See you later, Mr. DeWit.”

The “What are You Waiting For?” wall was Harold’s attempt at bringing some meaning to Advent and the anticipation of the coming Savior..  Of course, when school was all over before the break, he hoped that the student’s answer to the bulletin board question would be “Jesus.”

At home that evening, he stepped back from his project sitting on the workbench in the basement.  “There!” he said dusting off the small wooden toy box.  “Just one more thing…”  He reached over to the right for the branding iron.  “OUCH!”

“Harold?”  Maggie called from the other room wondering about her husband’s safety as he worked with power tools.

“Just applying the brand,” he said.

“Hot enough?”  Harold could hear her giggle.

“Ya-hoooo!  I just need to find my cowboy hat for the branding…”

“You just concentrate and finish up,” she said. “You don’t need twenty-three fifth graders asking you tomorrow, what ‘HDW’ burned onto your hand means.” She giggled again.

“Got that right.”  said Harold, not only teacher of covenant youth, but also amateur woodworker with almost average skills.  He agreed with his wife who sidled up to witness the branding of the Christmas present Harold was making for the neighbor kid.

“Don’t forget to write the date,” she said, “…and the verse…?”  Maggie’s voice trailed off with the question hanging in the air.  

The traditional signing of the Harold’s projects included the brand, the date and the reference to a verse in Lamentations.  He had written these on his projects since his very first attempts.   “OK…” he said.  Next to HDW he wrote “for Jake” then the date and, … with a sigh, the letters L-A-M 3:22-23.

“Looks good,” said Maggie. “I’ll bring it over tomorrow, when he gets home from school. ‘S that OK?”  Maggie knew that her husband’s long-time resentment resurfaced at this time of the year.  It tainted his mood at home and at school when he looked back into the darkness of so many years ago.  Then she added, “Doing OK?”

“Sure, I’ll be fine.  Thanks,” he said as he headed  back to the pile of student work waiting to be graded.

The next morning’s school routine began again. Determined to be able to walk into Christmas break school-work free, Harold arrived at school an hour earlier than normal, the world still cloaked in the morning darkness. He rinsed yesterday’s leftovers out of his mug and poured himself a cup of coffee.  He strolled around the room for the morning inspection, nodded at Bob, the classroom skeleton dressed in his holiday finery, and headed to his desk to tackle the tasks of the day.

As he passed the “What are You Waiting For?” bulletin board he noticed Abby’s puppy picture.  It was surrounded by other student’s wishes and wants for what they were waiting for that Christmas.  Pictures or trinkets with notes explaining their Christmas desires were attached to the bulletin board in the back of the room.  A variety of popular toys, visits from relatives and a trip to Punta Cana made the list.

Harold sighed…  In spite of his best efforts to show his students that Advent is a time of waiting, of anticipation for the Messiah, the Savior of the world, there was not one mention of Jesus.  

But it was there… right in front of him, right in front of his eyes, if only he would see it… there was Jesus.  

Abby walked in.  “Hey, Mr. DeWit,” she said offering her usual morning greeting.  “What’s the problem?”

Harold was sitting at his desk with his head in his hands.  He was remembering that day 35 years ago to that very December day when his daughter, Emma was born.  Cute, long and scrawny, what a precious gift!  He and Maggie had waited so long… so long… Their first child and, as it turned out, the last.   She was a miracle child, really.   

Blunt Abby again said, “What’s the problem, Mr. DeWit?”

Surprised to see his early morning visitor, Harold looked at her.  “What … !?  

“The Daily Mystery Math Problem!  What is it?”  she said. “I’d like to get an early start.”

“Oh,” Harold said.  “That problem.  It’s over there.  I forgot to put it up.  Would you?”

“Sure.”

“Thanks.”

Abby sat at her desk and worked on her problem and Harold worked on his.  He remembered that birthday, so long ago, so close to Christmas.

One of his first Christmas woodworking projects was a cradle for Emma.   He applied his less than average skills and finished the cradle just in time for Emma’s unexpected early arrival.  He proudly branded the side with HDW.  He wrote the date and Lam 3:22-23 on it,  all the while humming the song inspired by the verse… “Great is Thy Faithfulness!”

However, even years later Harold questioned that faithfulness, for within days, their dear, precious, gift from God…  Emma, died in her cradle….

Angry at God, needing to vent his anger, Harold hefted the cradle out to the curb and threw it on the pile of debris, waiting for the monthly bulk trash pick up, never to be seen again, never to remind him of that awful day. It seemed he would never forget the sting of loss and the seeming unfaithfulness of God….

“Mr. DeWit?”

“Yes, Abby?” said Harold.

‘Can’t wait to read my paragraph in class today.” she said.  “You know the ‘What are you waiting for’ paragraph?  Can I read it to you now?” said Abby.

“M ‘uh huh, sure, Abby,”  Harold said.  He gathered himself up out of his self pitying slouch. He looked the young girl in the eye, giving her all of the attention he could muster, “Let’s hear it.”‘  

Abby said.  “Oh, and here’s the picture.”  She ran to the back of the room, took off the picture she attached yesterday. She handed it to Harold.  “Ok, here goes..”  Abby took a deep breath and began reading to her early morning audience of one.  “What am I waiting for?  I’m waiting for a new baby brother.”

“Wait…” said Harold.  “I thought you were waiting for a puppy.”

“I was, until yesterday morning, when my mom told me about, Jacob.  That’s his name or will be his name, in May, you know what I mean.” Abby said.

“Great news, Abby.” You’ll make an awesome big sister.” Harold said.

“Thanks!”  Abby smiled.  “Here’s the rest of my paragraph.  ‘I’m waiting for a new baby brother.  My mom says he will arrive in May.  She says that if he’s anything like me he will be a good baby.”  Abby looked up at her teacher and grinned.

“He will sleep in the cradle that I slept in when I was little.  It’s the same one my mom slept in when she was a baby.  My mom says that back then her family was so poor that she didn’t have a place to sleep except for the floor or a drawer in an old dresser, no crib, like most babies slept in.  

Harold marveled at the child’s uninhibited openness.  

“One day my mom’s mother’s sister’s husband came by and brought them this cradle.”

“That would be your grandmother’s brother-in-law,” Harold said.

“Yah, right,” she said as Harold studied the photo Abby brought to hang on the bulletin board.  His gaze scanned the cradle and the precious child in it, while Abby continued.   His eyes rested on HDW- December 11 – Lam 3:22-23…

“Anyway, he said he found it on the side of the road.  So before the trashman came, he took it and brought it to the trailer.  That cradle is where my mom slept and where I slept and where new baby brother, Jacob, will sleep.  The End.”

Abby looked at the glassy eyed teacher.  “Who would throw away a cradle, Mr. DeWit?”

Harold turned away from Abby.  He captured the tear rolling down his cheek before he answered with a lie.

“I don’t know, Abby,” he said. “I don’t know…”

“I think my mom would like to say thanks if she could.”

The morning’s first light peeked into Harold’s classroom.  He  smiled at Abby.  “Thanks for sharing your story.  It made my day… and taught me something that  I needed to learn again.“

“Thanks, Mr. DeWit,” said Abby, as she bounced out of the room to greet her friends and a new day.

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“There’s A Memo”…”


Right up front, as we began this train trip west, I made it clear that there would be no more blogs about that dang Amtrak coffee mug. It’s the one that I bought dozens of years ago with the promise of free coffee… forever. I realized that I’ve pretty much exhausted the subject of whether or not that forever promise would be honored. I’ve tried the patience of my faithful (six) readers who are looking for something more substantial than Empire Builder coffee. “Enough is enough!” I said, that is…. until Jeanie, the cafe car attendant, when she spied my mug, leaned over the counter and almost whispering said, “There’s a memo out on those…”

Whoa! What? A memo! No! “Yep,” she said, “I heard there was a memo, but I haven’t seen it.” Wink, wink…. Then she took the mug and filled it with free coffee. Smiling, she said with a low gravely voice, “Don’t go broadcasting it now.”

Now, as I drink my clandestine cup of coffee, I vow that I won’t breath a word of it, except to you six. Besides, this will be the LAST time I write about …. shhhhhh…. you know…. wink, wink…